Past.Present.Future.

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2006-08-14T05:25:00.000-07:00

"..In The sweetness of friendship ,let there be laughter and the sharing of

pleasures .

For in the dew of little things the heart finds its morning and is refereshed."

Deconstructing Myself

2006-08-13T18:35:00.000-07:00

In my opinion, life is not worth living without:
1.Lots of reflection
2.Unique experiences
3.Taking risks
4.Standing for what i believe in
5.Exploring my dark side
6.Feeling every emotion
7.Developing my unique self
8.Relaxation
9.Loving,n caring for the onez who matter
10.FLIRTING...!!!

And i believe i've experimented with all but one to varying degrees.

I am left-brain dominant and 87 % taurean which essentaily means that i'm good at understanding directions and anything that is explicit and logical but should have trouble comprehending emotions and abstract concepts ,but its quite ironic that i will need multiple strokes of Amnesia or atleast 3-4 rebirths to wipe out my crush list for this life. Sincerest apologies to my x, double x, triple x (in a totally non pornograpic sense..!) ad infinitum crushes..NO CAUSE FOR WORRY..I'm Not quite a borderline Serial-stalker..

I'm really fascinated by occult and The Wheel of Fortune is the tarot card i'd most want to be.

If my life was a movie it would have to be the Sunset Boulevard ,A Black Comedy with sometimes everything so twisted and haywire that i may end up insane, but i'll still have fun on the way to the asylum .I like " Friends" for Chandlers dry wit and Phoebe'z wittingly absurd and yet peculiarly wise insights And in "The Simpsons " scenario i would be Barney--- my whole life a homage to beer.The Beer being BudLight :-)

If i had the musical talent to pen down a song it would surely be Acoustic#3 by Goo Goo Dolls and given the choice of being reborn as any musical instrument i'd most definitely choose the electric guitar with "Always with me,always with you"by Joe Satriani as the melody of my life...and would name my band "The Screaming Geishas" as a tribute to the Japanese Geishas for their excellent services to the pathetic specimen of the male species.

Of All of Santa's Reindeers Rudolph comes closest to me considering we both share peculiar noses..;-)

My Hawaiian Name is:... *Keandra Lokelani*

My Elf Name is:... *Candy Mc Mini*

My Italian Name is:...*Paola Giordano*

My French Name is:... *Jacqueline Chapelain*

My Pirate Name Is...*Bloody Wicked Wilma* ^_^

My nickname is... Edee

I was born on 7th May which makes me an island ..and i work best when im alone even though people are drawn to me...N yes i will die on 19th July 2053.

I'm 0 % sarcastic 0.0% narcissistic and therefore as sweet as a baby bunny... though i have occasional bursts of mood swings.

My outer blood type is O+ and inner is B and am most compatible with AB.The drug my personality comes closest to is cocaine but i believe Drugs are injurious to the brain... so all the Rock Stars should join Rehabilitation centers or get their brains checked..Or Well just date me!!

I believe Love isnt quite Blind ,it only turns so after both the parties have assessed each-others Market Value...And sometimes i wonder as to why people dont use the expression "unf**** you" ??.. By Wiping the "un" are u not wishing the person you want to curse the pleasure of carnal bliss again...!!!

If i had to color my hair i'd streak them blue and buy violet lenses to complement the look looking like a complete punk and get high on a martini and then have my favourite Rocky-Road Ice-cream.By the way i'm most compatible with Butter-scotch.

This clear cut yet somewhat incoherent definition of my personality is not just the work of a freak psyche and overworked imagination...even though their contribution has been quite commendable in the venture... i have the WWW to extend my gratitude to.The Net has helped me deconstruct myself in more ways than i ever thought imaginable.Answering all the queries and self-doubts i've ever had ,throwing up a Brand New "me" back at me that i never knew existed !

So anyone eternally-confused, trying to carve out a niche identity for themselves?...Wanting a peek into which Desperate Housewives Character is most you?,..or wats your celebrity smile type..'George Clooney' or 'Julia Roberts'!!..Or how about which underwear would you be if you were one - a precariously placed G-string or A cool and classy V-string...or maybe a sporty jockey ...!Are you A Schizophrenic..?An MPD(Multiple Personality Disorder)?..Suffering from Asperger syndrome(..The Sign of genius!!) ?Are your Brain Waves similar to Einstein's?...These are just a few of the vast volley of questions which Online Personality Quizzes guarentee to answer anyone.

Simplifying Oneself has never been easier...Pop a Question - and Voila!The Answer is just a click away!!

Graduation: A Brief History In Time

2006-08-12T02:34:00.000-07:00

"And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same.....
when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
...Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound... "

The first time i saw the video of this popular Vitamin C 'graduation anthem' was in my third year of engineering.It instantly struck a chord with me...not so much for the sweet lyrics at the time ...,but more because of the visual stimuli.Here was a girl all gaga and starry-eyed with a hopelessley gigantic crush on a guy;unable to quite take her eyes off him if he so much as ventured anywhere around ..and yet too hesitant to say anything despite constant pushing and probing by her best friend.The video goes on to show how she musters up the courage and confronts her prospective love with the matter so badly hounding her heart...awkward conversation followes and then a warm hug.I coudn't help smiling...Happy endings always have a way of charming people into doing that..

And i just thought to myself... O God! Thats just my story with a different cast!!..I completely empathized with the girl in the video.I had only heard about the powerful influence books,or an incident or music could have on people, propelling them to do the unachievable...It was just about to come true in my case.

Casting away all my doubts and fears,i decided to approach the hero of my story and air my thoughts .What was the worse that could happen?He'd just turn me down.Would be a massive blow to my self-image and pride but not quite Earth Shattering!Besides it would give me some peace of mind..it had been a while.

Well he did better than turn me down :)..and i had a similar simper like the girl in the video that whole day and for many more days to follow...Love can be quite a high!!!

..Today sitting idly on my computer,i heard the song again.It stirred up an entirely different set of emotions.Nostalgia this time.My college days;peppered with all the trivial and non-trivial details...

The initial euphoria of making it somewhere,my academic-focus having fizzled out by the end of the drop-year...the cheeky first-year student who at the eve of freshers-party vociferously declared to ahem! a super-senior that the "seniors" would be boycotted if they failed to "cooperate with us" ...and if that wasnt all.. went on to unintimidatedly say that "Ragging can get very vulgar at times" on stage..the whole college a witness..(..geez!!Didnt know till that day that speaking my mind could be so fatal...and yes i was royally screwd for that!!);considering the paranormal too as my self-proclaimed turf i went onto make psychic predictions for the benefit of my friends which even led one of them to 'tears'..I was quite a crazy package..!!

Second year saw me through an all time academic and emotional low.Everything went awry.The peer pressure,mental-unrest,my own inability to deal with it all...it felt like i was losing my sanity.At times i wanted to cry so bad,but even the tears wouldnt come easy.They never have.

Third year was a stabilizing factor.Classes seemed better.Love blossomed(..all credits to the song!!)..Oh the initial spark!..he was the center of my Universe.A Brief-illusion.Break-up.

Fourth year was all about bonding,placement-pressure and the oft-talked about but minimally worked on BE project.One of my project partners would tell us to just relax ,that finishing the project was no big deal..his emphatic speech affirming my faith in him.A few days before the end of our first semester he met with a fatal accident.Brain-haemorrhage.I still remember seeing his face in the ICU wing,a mass contortion barely recognizable.A far-cry from the perfectly-chiseled face he had been so blessed with.He passed away two days later.My first encounter with death.I turned opaque.For a while.Life goes on.

Time flew by...We were soon to pass out.The Guppa party by juniors,Graffiti,Slave trade...and finally the farewell;
the culmination of 4 years.Leaving the hostel for good; final goodbyes,embraces,constant reiterations of "will miss you's" and "Keep in touch"...

..And as i sit writing this i really do wonder as to where i'll be when i'm 25..we're all moving on and just wont slow down...and i just played over the memories ... like a film without sound...

Virgin territory.

2006-08-06T05:31:00.000-07:00

Humble beginnings. My first ever blog post...created chiefly out of whim and sheer boredom ..apart from the now nascent desire to mark my presence in cyberspace,i hereby start my foray into this new world one very drab sunday evening .... still drawing a blank at an effort to concoct anything resembling a decent entry.

...I guess its a sentiment every first time blogger shares ....or maybe my mental faculties need some greasing having been pushed into partial slumber with about a month and a half of inactivity.

Letting the virginal lack-of-thoughts rest in peace....In dire need of a little mental foreplay...in hopes of doing better next time...Amen!!

Past.Present.Future.

F*R*I*E*N*D*S

Deconstructing Myself

Graduation: A Brief History In Time

Virgin territory.

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